(Source: emile-e)
Throwing up.
Killer headache.
2:12am
10:30am Appointment.
GAH FML.
(Source: lookdroids)
Okayyyy,
Taking a cocktail of medication to keep from being ‘crazy’ is alright. I take 2 anti-psychotics, 1 sleeper and 1 anti-depressant. I have for, going on 3 years. My current medication was the end result of many combinations. This is the cocktail that worked.
And Yes, It Does Work.
Before I ‘got better’ I didn’t realise that people could actually not hate themselves (at the very least!) I did a lot of horrible things that In not proud of. I consistently behaved erratically, I was usually in a drug haze, I was a trainwreck emotionally.
Now, I’m ‘normal’, and man, it actually is awsome to just be happy.
…..
So what’s the problem?
……
I stopped taking my anti-depressant about a fortnight ago, just as a ‘see if this makes a difference’…. once upon a time I was taking up to 12 tablets a day in my quest to ‘get better’. I know that taking my current 5, one handful each night, is much better than that, but wouldn’t only 4 be even greater?
Is taking 4 or 5, what’s the difference?
Is not taking my anti-depressant negatively effecting me? (Most importantly!)
Well, I ‘feel’ more now, more bad.
Not a noticeable amount more good, but definitely more bad.
This isn’t what I wanted to say….
